I just need to get this last piece of negativity off my chest before 2013.   I started off being annoyed by a FB message that our mother was upset that nobody replied when she texted us that her husband has pneumonia. A text I never got. Then a remark that none of us had sent her new year greetings yet. I went to work really early today, so all the celebrations in the Philippines would have been finished by the time I got home. When I did start to call or text at a reasonable hour, no answer. Which is common in my family. Nobody picks up the phone. I really can't complain because I'm guilty of that, too.  So I manage to send a text to 2 phone nos., saying that I had been calling and texting without success. My mom calls back. I was already perturbed at this point. She proceeds to tell me about our father's medical woes. Typical me, I latch on to a comment she made on what snacks she eats during the 4 hours dialysis period. Of course, they were snacks that a diabetic like her shouldn't be eating. I don't know how else to get her (or either of them) to understand the importance of diet in controlling diabetes. Anyway, she ignores my comment, and I decide to let it go. 
I do have sympathy for her plight, the difficulty of being married to someone like our dad. I feel bad for her and my sister, that they have to take on this responsibility.  If my father was a nice man, then it would be a different story. I feel guilty that I can't be of any help.  But also somewhat relieved that I don't have to do it.  We've all been through it over the years, and he doesn't make it easy. I pray that God give them strength and patience.  I pray everyday that he becomes a better husband and father, and just a better human being.  I pray that I find a way to forgive, to help, to become a better daughter and sister, to rise above my own pettiness.

There.  I feel a little better. 



“Do you hear the people sing
Lost in the valley of the night?
It is the music of a people
Who are climbing to the light.

For the wretched of the earth
There is a flame that never dies.
Even the darkest night will end
And the sun will rise.”

A wonderful thought.



Doing this has helped me get over some of the sadness and despair after the murder of those innocents in Newtown. Thanks, Ann Curry!



"I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next.
Delicious Ambiguity.”
― Gilda Radner





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One individual's loathing of life has sparked an entire nation's appreciation of life.
One individual's poisonous hatred has ignited a nation's love, compassion, and sympathy.
One individual's fierce rage has quieted a nation for countless moments of reflective silence.
One individual's malignant jealousy has filled a nation with gratitude and thankfulness.
One individual's incessant feeling of helplessness has caused a nation to act.
One individual's destructive evil has compelled millions to seek goodness that is greater then themselves.

If happiness, joy, strength, gratitude, compassion, hope and love can be experienced during times of struggle, adversity, and heartache then you have found each of their true meanings.---It's in All of Us blog



A Prayer To The Holy Innocents

Holy Innocents, you died before you were old enough to know what life means, pray for all children who die young that God may gather them into His loving arms.

Holy Innocents, you were killed because one man was filled with hatred, pray for those who hate that God may touch their hearts and fill them with love.

Holy Innocents, you experienced a violent death, pray for all who are affected by violence that they may find peace and love.

Holy Innocents, your parents grieved for you with deep and lasting sorrow, pray for all parents who have lost young children that God may wrap a warm blanket of comfort around them.

Holy Innocents, those around you certainly felt helpless to prevent your deaths, pray for all who feel helpless in their circumstances that they may cling to God for courage and hope.

Holy Innocents, you who are now in Heaven, pray for all of us that one day we may join you there to bask in God's love forever.

Amen.

God bless those new little angels and their families.


The Wizard, the Hobbit, and the Gollum. Happy Hobbit Day Eve!

Merry Christmas from the First Dog!


Namaste.

I love this cat.




"I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright.

I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more.

I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive.

I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger.

I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.

I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.

I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good-bye."


 

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